Introducing ME...Samantha

Hi, I am Samantha, a female/woman/girl.
Had I been born a boy, my name would have been Samuel.

From the ripe old age of a knee-toddler I knew I wanted, nay, needed to write.
It took some time for me to find the right name/pseudonym...I took my would-have-been boy name and womanized it....Sam U. Elle.

Now for those of you who do not speak French, Elle is French for 'she' and being that I am an import into Canada where we speak both English and French (as the second language) that Elle would be a good way to utilize our second language...pretty freakin' tricky, eh.

I am on the edge of breaking into 42 years of living...June will officially be my beginning of toping the proverbial 'over the hill' mark.

I have short brown hair and blue/green eyes, I am not short but neither am I model tall (one of my dreams dashed).
I wear glasses but only for the computer.
I am a lesbian and am approaching 10 years of relationship bliss with my partner, Nomi.
Once upon a time I breached the 200 pound mark; however, that was 16 years ago, I have maintained my weight all these years, by walking to and from work and dancing at home while tossing some light hand weights around.

I live in an 3-floor walk-up apartment building, have been living there for over 10 years in the West End of Vancouver, British Columbia.
I have a cat, Healey, she is my big/fat/black cat...my monster, my pretty girl, and she tops the scales at 15 pounds.

I have OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder). I was diagnosed in March of 2007...but that is a story for another blog.

I had a horrid childhood; I think of my childhood in terms of books. "Mother Dearest" author: Christina Crawford and "Flowers in the Attic" author: V.C. Andrews.
My mom was verbally, physically, emotionally and mentally abusive to both me and Vanessa, the middle child, I am the eldest and then there is our younger sister, Alexandria.

I ended up in a foster home at the age of 17 and from there my life has been a whirl-wind of ups and downs.

In the future, you will read about my childhood in more detail, about the abusive relationships I've had, about being diagnosed with OCD, about my amazing relationship with my partner, about my job as a Continuing Education (CE) Coordinator, I'll also be tossing in some poems I've written or poems that have touched me and I will write about god-only-knows what else.

Really, there will be oodles to read in the future...you will laugh, cry, you will be angered and likely mystified.

I am blogging for my mental health.

I hope you enjoy who and what I am about.

Peace,
Sam U. Elle